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[benjineedssleep]

(fanfic) stardew valley character outfit descriptions <3

something i wish i saw more in fics and stuff are the finer details. like what characters are wearing. not all the time, and not always super detailed, but sometimes. which is why i'm doing it myself in my current wip :3

all screenies are spoiler free!!! (or too out of context to be spoilers.) i'll be posting the fic on ao3 once it's finished and edited. i'm currently 93.6k words in and still have 3 seasons left to write! so it won't be out for a while but if you wanna beta... get a sneak peak... i'm lookin' at you XD

ANYWAYS ONTO THE POINT OF THIS POSTTTTT

(alt text after "keeping reading"... also be easy on me this is a DRAFT)

none of this is chronological btw... don't come for me i was doing a word search so i didn't have to doom scroll for these scenes (the document is currently 168 pages long--)

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please let me know if this is not an efficient way to do things btw, i'm new here!!!

Though Sam didn’t have an umbrella, his typical outfit changed a bit to accommodate the weather. The hems of his baggy jeans and fabric of his daily Converse were equally as wet, but his signature spiky hair was safely tucked into the hood of a primary color blocked hoodie. This would’ve been fine ten minutes ago, but now the rain began to pick up.

Most days Sebastian walked around in one of his many black hoodies or band tees, not bothering to accessorize. But the past couple of weeks he’d been trying a bit harder. Today he dressed up his skinny jeans with a pair of layered belts, one studded with stars and the other a solid white with a sparkly buckle. Up top he layered a number of necklaces, rubber wrist bands, and spiked bracelets. He even put the studs and rings back in the cartilage of his ears, having only tunnels in his stretched lobes for the longest time.

Evelyn sifted through a basket behind the door and pulled from it said mittens, sitting them in Sebastian’s hands. They were a solid black with a marbled button on top. “Thank you, wow.” He put them on, rotating his hands around. They fit perfectly. /// “Look.” She pulled back the mitten flap and secured it down with the button. “They’re regular gloves underneath so if you need the full extent of your hands, you don’t need to take them off. Usually they’re fingerless, but I wanted to make sure you were extra warm no matter what.”

Sebastian flattened the collar of his leather jacket, adjusting his tucked in black button down. For some reason, he felt the older woman would judge him if he wasn’t properly put together. “My mother would appreciate any gift from you, Evelyn. You know how much she loves you.”

At this point, Sebastian had a decent idea of what he wanted to wear. It was very typical for him, either a sweater or long sleeve shirt, his favorite pair of ripped jeans, and probably a heavier coat to compensate for all the holes in his pants. He was even considering wearing a hat, which he never did.

Sebastian bent over in the stool, tossing some of the discarded clothing to the side so he could get to the side of the room Sam was on. “I dunno.” He sifted through a mess of hats inside of an old bookshelf that he kept in the closet. From it he pulled a grey ushanka and a loose fitting tassel beanie. He had a few of those beanies, each a different character, but this one in particular was a skeleton cat. “Pick.” /// Sam tossed the hoodie over his shoulder, picking up the beanie. He stared at the front, turning it to the back and tugging at the ears a bit before speaking. “You own cutesy stuff?” /// “I own a lot of cutesy stuff actually.” Sebastian dug through the pile again pulling out a similar hat, just Hello Kitty this time. It had her distinct red bow and everything. “How about that?” He then pulled out a Gir one, shaking it in front of Sam’s face. “Mmm?”

Sebastian sat on the floor of his best friend’s bedroom, watching her through a mirror. She’d been at this hair thing for a while now, having trimmed it for him, but she now focused heavily on sectioning it off to be dyed. A number of colored claw clips were clamped to her pink Hello Kitty pajama pants. “You wanna talk about it?” She struggled out, comb between her teeth as she twisted a section of hair. /// “What’s there to talk about, Abby?” He knew but, as always, someone needed to pull those conversations out of him. /// Abigail pushed the comb into Sebastian’s thick hair, crossing her arms over her chest. Sebastian could see her shoulders square clearly in the spaghetti strap tank top she wore. He didn’t believe her when she’d said she was getting stronger the further down the mines she went, but there was no denying it now. “Why do you look like you’re gonna beat me up?”

Sam dried his hands off on his blue flannel pajama pants and fiddled with a leather hardshell case. From it he pulled out a glossy electric guitar. The color was almost identical to the dice Sam used when they played Solarian Chronicles together. It was several shades of red and orange, twisted together in a wispy under-blended fashion. A few spots were scuffed or chipped, stickers torn and fading, but all Sebastian saw was a well loved instrument.

Sam pushed his head back to look at Robin upside-down before rolling over. “I’m alright.” He fixed his cargo pants and loose t-shirt. “Just got too into it I guess.”

Abigail had apparently felt similarly about herself. She expressed obvious discontent with Sam’s lack of care as she braided the overgrown mop of his hair into two identical French braids earlier in the day. “I just don’t get you, dude. How can you just not care?” /// “I mean, I do.” He leaned forward slightly so Abigail could get the tension right. “I have a style and things I like but it’s very… what does my mom say? Formulaic? Y’know like, I have a real repeatable kinda style. Pick a pair of jeans, any shirt, match my shoes, which are almost all the same, just in different colors, and throw on a jacket or a hat or something. All the stuff goes with each other. Very few decisions.”

[skyisntthere]

When I'm ready, It'll be you.

Sebastian SDV X G/N Reader

warnings; Mentions of cheating, Angst (with fluff at the end). if i missed any let me know!

Plot; You caught your boyfriend from Zuzu city cheating on you so you went home to pelican town to be comforted by your best friend Sebastian

Word count; around 900!

a/n; Heya! its my first fanfic on tumblr, honestly a little nervous about this. please feel free to request or ask me a question, always happy to talk!!

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There were tears running down your face, luckily the rain covered it up. You knew you would get sick if you stayed out but who cared? You certainly did not after all he broke your heart. 

Was it silly that you thought something was going great in your life for him to rip it away so easily, like those months, years meant nothing to him at all. Now you were waiting, just patiently waiting for someone to say ‘I told you so’ making you feel like the town's clown, a laughing stock. 

You knew it wouldn't work really, moving to pelican town while he stayed in Zuzu city. He promised he stayed for work when you knew it was for her as why else would she be in his bed when you arrived on your visit. Now you were at the top of the mountains standing, looking down at the clouds of mist covering Pelican town wishing, praying someone wouldn't notice. Who goes out in the rain anyways? 

You wanted to scream, to yell as loud as you could until your lungs bled. “Hey” you jumped as Sebastian appeared out of nowhere. For ages you tried to convince the emo guy to get out his basement and the one time he did, you wish he didn't. You couldn't look at the man next to you wishing he would get the hint and leave. “What are you doing out in the rain?” He asked, you stayed staring, you loved your friend but you told yourself you didn't need him now, even though you needed him more than ever. 

You and Sebastian just clicked when you met him, you respected his work and often hung out with him and his group of friends, if life was a game you would have a full bar of friendship with the guy. He was your best friend, the one that makes living here worth it. “Are you ignoring me?” Sebastian looked down at the ground thinking what he's done wrong. You looked at him, if it was possible you felt your heart hurt more. 

Sebastian looked at you studying your facial expressions, your eyes lost the shine they once had, you looked tired… hurt. “What happened?” He asked. “Why are you crying? Are you home sick, i can take you-” you shook your head. “No! No, I just got back” You managed to spit out. “Right, let's have a cigarette, a moment to calm down and then you're telling me all about it” Sebastian offered you a cigarette which you accepted. Lighting the cigarette you inhaled the smoke in. When you exhaled the smoke you felt like you were watching the pain disappear with the comfort of your best friend.   

It was quiet, all you heard was rain hitting the ground, you could tell Sebastian regretted not bringing out an umbrella but you knew it wouldn't be long till you headed to his room. When the two of you finished your cigarettes he softly took your hand and dragged you towards his house. He knew you would try to sneak away, you were stubborn and thought you could handle everything on your own. You went down to his room, he gave you a pair of clothes and disappeared. 

You debated getting changed but you did not want to upset your best friend. After a while of waiting for him he came back down with two mugs of coffee. You smiled as you took it, as he sat next to you on his sofa. Sebastian stayed silent as he knew in your own time you would open up. He wasn't one to rush you and it was one of your favourite things about him. 

“He cheated on me Seb” You muttered it was more like a whisper. “He did what?” Sebastian said in shock. “What a jerk? I feel like taking my motor-" Sebastian caught himself quickly and looked at you, as you looked down at your cup he lifted your chin with his finger. “Hey, He’s not worth it!” He looked softly at you. “He never deserved you anyway and now you never need to go back there” you nodded. He was right, no more wasting money on trips or begging people to help with the farm work while you were gone. 

You started to feel better at the same time noticing the physical contact Sebastian did, you felt your cheeks burn a little as Sebastian was known for the lack of emotions. “Besides, I know it's early but there are some fine people here ya know” He piped up… was he talking about himself? The feelings you buried deep down for your best friend started to rise up. “Yeah I suppose so… wanna set me up with sam?” you tried holding in your laughter but it failed and you both were laughing. It was nothing against Sam, but he wasn't exactly your type. “Thanks Seb” Sebastian smiled back as thunder echoed from outside. “You can stay here if you want, I can sleep on the sofa” He said calmly, acting like he wasn't mentally throwing a party as his soulmate was now single, but this is Sebastian, he would wait a million years for you.  

As you looked at the time on your phone you agreed to staying, it was already pretty late anyways. You and Sebastian spoke for hours. He then asked if you wanted to watch some movie he had and you agreed. You sat next to him on his bed and started watching the movie. As you two were watching the movie you rested your head on his shoulder and your eyelids began to close, Sebastian noticed you were asleep and put his head on yours, after the movie ended he lightly kissed your head and moved to the sofa to get some sleep. 

You weren't ready for someone else, but you knew when you were, it would be him. It would always be Sebastian.

[beenbaanbuun]

alt bands i associate with ateez

also please ignore all the horrific puns, once i started i could not physically stop…

hongjoong - slipknot

one of the most iconic nu metal bands to ever exist so of course i associate them with hongjoong

incredibly theatrical and i think joongie would appreciate that

he could fuck, fuck, fuck me up, just as is referenced in the iconic song custer…

seonghwa - sleep token

horny metal for the man who acts like a slut the moment he steps foot on stage

and the whole cult/worship thing they have going on?? i mean i worship hwa on the daily so….

if seonghwa got me in a chokehold, i’d be a happy little chappy indeed

yunho - electric callboy

goofy and silly metal for our goofy silly boy

literally such a fun band with fun music and i love them so much (just like i love yunho so much wtf?!?!?!?)

i’d ride on his tekkno train if you get what i’m saying…

yeosang - bring me the horizon

can make loud, aggressive music but can also make softer more melodic music and i think that duality perfectly fits sangie (hot and sexy but also so soft)

just like bmth said in their song follow you, he could drag me through hell if it meant i could hold his hand

sangie’s fluffy fluorescent green emo hair reminds me of old bmth merch…

san - don broco

THUG WORKOUT THUG WORKOUT THUG WORKOUT!!!!!!

don broco’s music so lad-ish and despite being so incredibly soft, san is also such a lad’s lad…

san can relate to t-shirt song… he often does not wear one

mingi - limp bizkit

did you expect me to say anything else? i mean… c’mon guys… it’s mingi

if i chose any other band it would be a sin and a crime for which i would have to serve a life sentence for

mingi could break stuff if he really wanted to… stuff being my spine…

wooyoung - knocked loose

bryan garris is a silly little guy and you know who else is a silly little guy? wooyoung

squeaky vocals to match wooyoung’s squeaky laugh!!! they go together sooooo well

unlike their song everything is quiet now, wooyoung is very rarely quiet… it’s a good job the song itself is in fact incredibly loud (and so fun live)

jongho - bad omens

noah sebastian has gorgeous vocals and so does jongho, therefore this is a match made in heaven

but they can also be loud as fuck when they want to be and jongho is often disruptive to the peace

whatever they were talking about in death of peace of mind? yeah, i want that with this man… so desperately

[lotuwhores]

Born To Die ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

Lana Del Rey x Stardew Valley !! pair : sebastian x farmer (you) genre : Angst, Hurt/No Comfort warning(s) : failed attempt at homewrecking, Alcohol usage, Cigarette/s and Weed usage, Suggestive content, Foul language, Violence, Abigail is bad here. (lmk if I missed some ^-^) a/n : this was made because of my poor younger lil' heart wanted to throw hands with abigail because she was the pair of my emo zesty loner husband.. Anyway! Angst with sebby is the best pair to read and write; I came up with this while I was listening to Lana and flirting playing with stardew (characters) !! >-<

November 7, xxxx

Tip, Tap. The sounds of your boots clicking from the blond guitarist's house onto the pavement laid out so generously, even way back before her grandpa had lived in the valley; breath growing heavy as if it was a race, because it is a race of time, the hours, minutes, and even seconds mattered even more than usual as a certain purple haired woman had managed to get the man she loves dearly alone.

Normally, this would not be the problem. It was obvious from the start, she had a crush on him, or rather still does with how she's getting touchy with his shoulders, fingers tracing from his jaw to his neck down to his chest. Panting heavily, slamming the poor wooden door open to reveal the said woman- hell woman was much too generous to call that minx anything respectful with how she's begging and pushing Sebastian to leave you for her.

Heart pounding with each step taken forward, right, left, right, left; The pattern repeating. Breath uneven due to the fear of losing your beloved Sebastian over the woman who he simply used to have a crush on, A classic trope most would root for; The childhood friends to lovers. But that simply won’t happen.

Or at least that’s what you hoped for. You’ve been begging, pleading, beseeching the pearly gates of heaven to give you a sign, a verification that he was in fact yours. After all this was no fairy tale, no movie but in fact reality, you are more than aware that he could just slip within your grasp if you give even the slightest opportunity to get him flustered with gifts, letters. Hell, even use you to grasp his interests, likes, dislikes.

A sense of relief washed over you as you saw him push her off, The woman with her brows furrowed at the sudden action. Abigail immediately scoffed as she saw you on the doorway, still sitting on the couch with Sebastian already scrambling to approach you.

Yet that happened a week ago, now here you both were.

Two set of feet thumping on the concrete streets, their path being dimly lit by the city street lamps. From a far, one city street lamp flickered as if there was something wrong with the light bulb inside, possibly a fuse deficiency who knows. It was one of those late nights, walking through the quiet city of zuzu; Given it was two thirteen am already, He had invited you to take a quick stroll around the city which turned into a deep conversation.

A soft smile adorning his features, the colorful lights only added more to his beauty paired with that contagious laugh. Is it by mistake or design? You questioned yourself, The ends of your lips curling into a smile, it was impossible not to be infected by his laughter. After all it was uncommon to see him laugh so happily and not a lot of others get to relish in his laughter.

Despite being with him, there was still something missing. Different from how she usually feels on Friday nights, instead of being joyous it felt lonely even with shared laughter between the two of you. No,it must be the fact he has not yet shared the three words you crave oh so much. The words you've been aching to hear ever since your eyes met.

" Can you make it feel like home.. " Words suddenly spewing out of your mouth before you even knew it. " Hm? " A soft hum left his lips, head cocked to the side to meet your gaze, a sweet smile on his face enhancing his features. " ...if I tell you you're mine? "

His brow raising as the corner of his mouth curled upwards into a smirk, almost as if looking at you questioning your words; As if it was already obvious what his answer would be. " It's like I told you, Honey. "

November 12, xxxx

Eyes widening, mouth falling slack. He hadn't-- he didn't mean to, it was a spur of moment action, His emotion got to him first, you have to believe him. Never in the years you both had been together had he laid a single hand on you, you didn't want to believe it. Yet, the stinging pain on your cheek was living proof that he had indeed slapped you.

Blobs of tears swelled in your eyes, threatening to fall within any moment. Your fingers are reaching to touch the aching pain, practically feeling a red mark imprint; hissing at the pain. You stared at him in disbelief, eyes filled with hurt and possibly fear, he couldn't tell.

“ Wait-- Honey I didn't mean to- ” He spoke, voice softening as his fingers desperately tried to reach yours only for you to pull away with that same devastating look on your face. “ Please, you have to believe me.. ” Feet taking slow steps forwards as he looked at you with guilty eyes.

Taking steps backwards as you stray further away from him, almost stumbling in the process but keeping your eyes on him and his movements for any.. Unsuspected actions.

After that however, he hates it, hates himself for slapping you albeit not intentionally but still. It gnawed at his insides all day and all night, twisting and turning after that day he had not stepped a single foot in your peripheral vision. Afraid of hurting you once more even if it was an accident.

Twisting and turning, the bed dipping under his weight as he desperately tried to grasp onto a happy dream; As he finally did, he could visibly see you. Looking oh so gorgeous, laughing at whatever lame dry joke he spoke that you always seemed to love and laugh at. Although it would've been a side effect of the weed they had taken previously.

Taking a drag of the blunt rolled between his fingers, blowing smoke onto his fair skin. Laughter shared between the two as Sebastian kept his eyes on the road, it was a bumpy road yet none of them seemed to care, only reeling in the feeling of acceleration and adrenaline rushing throughout both bodies blood.

It was still a long way to their destination so why not just, try to have fun in the meantime? Their time together is precious, and everything shared between them is kept as a secret.

November 21, xxxx

Basking in the rain, it was a rare occasion for rain to pour down; especially this hard. Twirling around, smiles and laughter in the air as Jas and Vincent had gone out to play in the rain as well, Eyes softening as he put a hand on your hip, the other intertwining his fingers with yours while your free hand went on his shoulder.

Slow dancing in the rain, foreheads touching as the soft splatter of water soon faded away. In his vision, only you and him were in the town spending time in the later days of November. His gaze set on you and only you, a soft smile on his lips as he slowly leaned in with his eyes slowly shutting.

Yours did the same, closing as you felt a pair of lips on your own. Moving in sync as his hand came to untangle with yours and rest itself behind your head to push your head more to his to deepen your kiss. Your hands wrapping themselves around his neck as you could only return back the kiss.

His tongue glides across your bottom lip, with the permission to intrude he does so gratefully. His hand on your hip sliding to grasp on the plump of your rear, as much as you both would love to continue you both pulled away with a string of saliva connecting both of you.

Giggling softly, you looked at him with much appreciation. Head cocking to the side only to remember Jas and Vincent were still out in the rain and was dancing around the puddle, glancing at your lover, the end of your lips curling into a smirk you untangled yourself from him and joined the kids in the dance.

Sebastian only scoffed muttering underneath his breath; “ god you're so insane. ” with a smile on his lips he shortly joined the little ritual of circling and dancing around the puddle. Oh how Sam was gonna kill the both of them for letting Vincent dance around in the rain and the same goes with Jas only with Shane.

TO BE CONTINUED —› (will update when my schedule is free ^~^)

Additional a/n : Heh.. Guys this isn't finished.. yet. I just wanted this to be out, of course I'll update this and finish it so for now this is a W.I.P and I'm actually very proud of this so please don't steal :( ps. you can also see when I stopped doing the colorful thingy bcs I got lazy >-<

[andersmancy]

Worldstate :3

(as shown through blurry character creator screenshots)

Lillium "Lily" Mahariel

Female (she/her), bisexual, 18 (born 9:12 Dragon)

Duel Daggers Rogue, Bard/Assassin specialisations

Romanced Alistair (hardened)

Party Members: Alistair, Leliana, Wynn (Origins) / Justice, Nathaniel, Anders (Awakening)

Friends with literally everyone, will talk her way out of (or into) every situation possible, has chronic hero syndrome and tries to save everyone and get the best outcome possible (even if she can’t).

hardened both Leliana and Alistair

Aided mages, peace between (cured) werewolves + dalish,

Connor alive and de-possessed (using mages), Urn remained unspoiled.

Bhelen made king of Orzammar, Branka killed, Anvil destroyed.

Anora is queen, Alistair remains a warden, Logain killed by Lillium herself

Killed archdemon herself, Morrigan conducted the dark ritual with Alistair (sorry dude).

Allowed Avernus to conduct ethical research

Architect alive, saved both Vigil’s Keep + Amaranthine.

Cass Hawke

Female (she/her), bisexual, 25 (born 9:05 Dragon)

Duel Daggers Rogue, Shadow/Assassin specialisations

Romanced Anders (and Justice)

Party Members: Anders, Fenris, Isabela (I love drama)

looks essentially like default fem!hawke but more emo and with grey eyes.

The most self-destructive rogue this side of the Waking Sea, is pure Purple because if she takes anything seriously it means it's Real.

Rivalled Fenris + Sebastian, friends with everyone else

Bethany became a Warden, Merril has eluvian and her clan is alive, Bartrand alive

Fully supported mages + Orsino, opposed Templars + Meredith (FUCK THE CHANTRY)

Feynriel sent to Dalish, then freed and went to Tevinter

Killed the Arashok, Isabela came back

Sided with Larius, befriended Tallis

Let Anders live, supported chantry boom, sided with mages

Leira Lavellen

Female (she/her), straight, 31 (born 9:10 Dragon)

Archer Rogue, Assassin Specialisation

Romanced The Egg (Solas)

Party Members: Solas, Cole, Blackwall (Inquisition) / Dorian, Cole, Blackwall (Trespasser)

Trying her hardest to act pragmatic and polite so the chantry won't burn her at the stake for being an elf. Generally she is logical and rational... except when it comes to Solas where she is so in love it makes her stupid.

Solas removed her Vallaslin, and she swore to try and save him.

High approval with everyone... somehow

She denies being the Herald ("I'm Dalish!")

Sided with mages as allies, fuck the templars.

Cullen stopped taking Lyrium, Leliana softened and made Divine.

Saved chargers, Cole more human, Blackwall to become grey warden, rebuild Seekers.

Celene rules w/ Briala, Grand Duchess Florianne lives

Inquisitor drank from well, respected tradition, and allied w/ guardians.

Wardens rebuilt, Hawke left in fade – sorry, Anders :(

Bull remained loyal, Inquisition disbanded.

Lumen Thorne

Non-Binary (they/them), Bisexual, 27 (born 9:25 Dragon)

Grey Warden, Mage, Spellblade

Romanced Lucanis (and Spite)

Primary Party: Lucanis, Neve / Davrin, Emmrich

Conducted a blood magic ritual to give themselves top surgery (would have been a blood mage if Bioware weren't cowards), primarily sarcastic because if they don't laugh they'll cry.

Saved Treviso

Befriended literally everyone

Bellara kept the Archive, Davrin sent griffons to Arlathan, Emmrich saved Manfred, Harding embraced titan’s compassion, Lucanis forgave Illario, Neve hardened, Rivaini Taash

Harding died, Bellara (temporarily) blighted

Solas redeemed and reunited with Lavellan, they walked into the sunset or whatever

[rodolfoparras]

Honestly I love the look of my clothes obviously and i feel hot asf in them but then after wearing it for a few minutes I'm like hmm no I want my pyjamas back😭 I have like one outfit that I can wear all day without getting uncomfortable and it makes me look emo💪(that's what I'm going for)

Also cute little thing about William and Talia that's kinda smutty also ! so sometimes when Talia gets really surprised, his wings spread and fluff out a lot, a lot of the time knocking things over yk? Well he also does that when overwhelmed and basically first time having sex, William made Talia cum so hard his wings suddenly spread out and knocked a bunch of things off of the nightstand😭 he was so embarrassed but William actually found it really funny and actually chuckled!! (he never really laughs or smiles, is either like :| or >:| all the time. )

And I had to make Virgil have at least a little bit of comfort, even if it's minor. William did one time let Virgil sleep in after he had a huge breakdown the night before also. That's the nicest thing he's ever done to Virgil

For Deer boy, when working for Ciel, his name is Oliver but his actual name is Opal ! Changed to Oliver to blend in more since it's more common of a name.

Oliver also like will go on and on when someone is complaining over something really minor😭 like the guy with the tea? If Oliver wasn't dragged away by Sebastian he would've probably said something like. "Oh boo hoo your tea isn't perfect, why don't you go cry to your mommy about it like the big baby you are. Grow the fuck up, you're 42 crying about tea, maybe do something useful with your life" And much more.

also one time Ciel asked another kid his age how they couldn't read and with zero hesitation, Oliver was like "probably because their family is poor and can't afford education, you rich asshole" like he doesn't even hold back from his mini boss😭 Sebastian is the only one spared because he's pretty🙄

-🌱

I am very much the same if I could I’d live in my gray sweats and soft t’s why can’t pajamas / sleeping clothes be fashionable id make headlines here 😞

Well hello that sounds both cute and hot bc imagine overstimulating someone and watching their wings twitch rapidly 🧎🏻‍♂️

I love that everyone’s giving him a bit of love I think everyone deserves it 🥹

Deer boy has such a pretty name!!! Idk why but I think of pearls when I hear it? I love it!! Please I wouldn’t stand a chance if deer boy would cuss me out why is he hitting all the sore spots 😭

[tranzfalgar]

bachelor/ette(s) and which artists i think they’d listen to, their music habits, and/or what their playlists would be like!

Alex:

- this man LOVES ricky montgomery more than words can describe

- his playlist is like a game of chance, you get an actual jam or something depressing as fuck

- haley once saw him go from singing his heart out to just straight up crying. she won’t let him live it down.

Elliot:

- the sounds of gentle piano and the ocean waves is the only music he needs

- he rlly likes yiruma, and knows most of his songs on piano

- sometimes he’ll leave his door wide open so he can hear the ocean waves better when writing/listening to music

Harvey:

- your average jazz and older music enjoyer

- he loves the sound of violins and saxophones, the sounds just make his brain go brrrrr

- his doctors office just has smooth jazz going in the background all the time, and harvey will just sway to the music sometimes

Sam:

- strictly guitar covers, simply because he likes to learn and observe the cords others use

- a wilbur soot and love joy stan

- his playlist has like 200 songs on it and he just puts it on shuffle most times

Sebastian:

- “alexa play daddy issues by the neighborhood!”

- he rlly likes the neighborhood as well as mitsuki

- not as emo as you may think

- has a playlist for every single mood, so he can always get the vibes perfect

Shane:

- he loves sleeping at last

- his playlist is sad as FUCK, and it only has like 10-20 songs on it, but they always manage to get him

- he also rlly likes penelope scott

Abigail:

- SHE LOVES LEMON DEMON AND BO BURNHAM

- she loves to play the air guitar when she listens to her playlists

- she likes music that will make her laugh

Emily:

- it strictly depends on the day, like one day she’ll be listening to classical and the next it’s like rap or something

- she steals playlists from her friends or looks them up on the internet

- sometimes she’ll get inspirations for outfits from the music she listens to

Haley:

- she listens to like….whatever is on the radio? she isn’t exactly a big music person

- but she does have a tendency to know EVERY single song and it’s lyrics, so she’ll always sing along

- she doesn’t have a playlist at all

Leah:

- she likes most songs, but especially the ones that have stuff added to it. like those “____ but it’s midnight and it’s raining outside” youtube videos

- she loves finding new ones and just adding them to her little youtube playlist (she uses youtube music spare her)

- elliot found she liked this sort of stuff, and made a little playlist of ocean-themed songs!

Maru:

- black eyed peas enjoyer

- loves techno music, like head banging shit

- she made herself a really sick pair of headphones she always wears while working on her projects

Penny:

- her music taste is rlly soft n sweet love songs n stuff (dodie clark, mindy gledhill, etc)

- she loves the ENTIRE adventure time soundtrack, like she adores it

- she always hums softly to herself when reading

[songsfortimeandspace]

If you’re accepting requests, what type of person do you think Sebastian would go for? I loved your take on Harvey even though I don’t normally woo him 😄

omg!! yes! to be honest i don’t know a ton about our emo boy but after having read through all his dialogue, i think i got a handle on it

Sebastian is fiercely independent and needs someone who understands his freedom. he also sees the dark sides of life, beauty, and love, and wants someone who can appreciate that darkness with him— think a Gomez/Morticia dynamic

some specifics:

he is very interested in the modern goth subculture, but is very turned on by someone with a more traditional approach to gothic life. for example, when he asks you what you like to read, if you name a classic in gothic literature, he’s smitten. if you rattle off some fun fact about the way people lived in the victorian era, he’s literally already in love

dark clothes. even in the summer time. he thinks it’s artsy and poetic and deep

lots of jewelry. stacked rings, layered necklaces, dangly earrings, anything like that. he thinks it adds personality and edge to outfits that the all black look just can’t do on its own

not many things make him laugh, so a good sense of humor is a must, but he doesn’t realize that it’s a must until he notices how much better he feels about everything after you give him a hearty belly laugh that nearly makes him cry

MAKE GOOD DRINKS. if you have a repertoire of delicious, fancy, decadent mixed drink recipes in your back pocket, that’s even better than being a good cook in his eyes

he loves someone who is more open about their feelings than he is. he sees it as permission to be more open about his, which is something he’s really trying to work on

he likes someone who takes Halloween seriously. he wants to have the scariest house in town for trick-or-treaters

he’s a little gatekeep-y about music, so when he shows you something he’s really into at the moment, just pretend you’ve never heard this song/band before even if you have. what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him, ya know?

he appreciates honesty and devotion more than anything else. you’ll know he really trusts you when he starts to show you some of the sad poems he’s written over the years. he’s a little insecure about them because of how talented Elliot is

[zevzevarainai]

and now, YOUR top 10 fav characters? 👀

I'm going to try to avoid using more than one from a single piece of media or else it would be like yakuza and dragon age and thats it.

1. Majima

I feel like I don't have to explain this one anymore. Very deep and well-written character that is easy to misinterpret if you don't think critically.

2. Zevran

My url namesake... Another character that people misinterpret because of how they act on the surface level. People who don't take the time to talk to him or think about him at all think he cares about nothing but seggs, as the tikkytoks say, and is cold-hearted. But oh my gawd could that not be further from the truth. This boy... the most... loyal companion you will ever get and the most loyal lover... also he's fucking hilarious

3. Sebastian SDV

Ok hear me out. I love this bunch of pixels to no end. And you may be thinking, Carly. He's the town emo and he is kind of rude. No you do not understand. This boy is so good. First of all, I relate to him so much, if you held a gun to my head and said pick a kin it would be him. The biggest reason is that he has anxiety/depression, but it presents itself in anger instead of the stereotypical panic/hyperventilating/etc which is how mine is too. His social anxiety/introverted nature is handled SO WELL especially if you romance him; literally tells your character that he doesn't feel anxious around them which is a gigantic compliment when people like him tell you you arent draining to be around... tells you about things that remind him of you!! When you are living together he literally says multiple times that he needs to go do whatever by himself-- which in one bit of dialogue he says "I need to stay independent, even though we're married. That's just how I am. I still love you, though." and also “I may be a reclusive guy, but I'm always happy when you're around.” and “Hey. I couldn't sleep last night so I took a walk to the caves. I found this ...want it? I just have trouble sleeping sometimes, it has nothing to do with you. I love you.” ????? THIS MAN IS SO PRECIOUS also he loves frogs and loves his mom's cooking and says she deserves to be happy listen there is a reason i have written so much him and my farmer fanfic

4. Sera DAI

I've mentioned multiple times that the writers handled her horrendously in the eyes of the main character and some of the companions but god damn the rest of her is *chefs kiss* I, myself, want to marry her, but I do not like her romance. HOWEVER, her friendship is SO GOOD!! I'm going to try not to go into my Sera defense essay, but it's important to note that she is flawed and also very neurodivergent. A big argument against her is that she hates elves, which, kind of, but its not her fault, and she grows as a person to the point in Trespasser when she goes out of her way to make sure a Dalish inquis is mentally/emotionally okay with [SPOILERS]. At the beginning, she's very stubborn and set in her ways but she grows if you let her!! I also love her Red Jenny stuff though she fights for "the little people" and I LOVE THAT!! Even without a romance, she loves her best friend inquisitor so so much!!! Her journal entries are so cute and funny and charming, she also has bits about how much she loves being the inquisitor's friend and the heartbreaking bits in trespasser!! Also she's fucking hilarious. Her VA did such a good job too, her laugh is so authentic. Anyway, if you want the sera defense essay, send me an ask.

5. Enid (OK K.O.)

If you haven't seen this show I highly recommend it and it was such a shame that it got cancelled. It has moments of being serious but its mostly very fun and genuinely hilarious and you can just tell so much love was put into it... anyway Enid is the main girl of the show. One of the things I love most about her is they do not bother trying to make her pretty all the time-- the art style in this show is so goofy and in a lot of cartoons that make wacky expressions they only do it on the boys but not here... she makes the same ridiculous expressions and poses but she is still perceived as very cool and pretty. Also her entire character is just so fun; she's born a witch but she wants to be a ninja and she works in retail, tries to act cool all the time and learns to own the parts of herself she is embarrassed about... i just love her so much and also this show

6. Princess Peach

The champion of being the one the sister/girl cousin has to pick in Mario Party/Kart/etc. but we love to see it. I love her because, as we can see, she is super feminine but (at least in the side games) still does everything the boy characters are doing and is capable of kicking their ass. It would have been very easy for nintendo to not include her because shes too dainty or whatever but she ISN'T and she can HANDLE HERSELF she beats the shit out of people in smash and races karts/motorcycles and is playable in games like 3D world and rabbits and anyway I'm waiting for a sequel to Super Princess Peach in which she has the same moveset as in smash

7. Tali'Zorah

So I'm still mad I couldn't smooch her because kissing an alien is okay but being a homo is too much. But anyway I love her she is so cute and smart and purple, emotionally vulnerable and kicks ass we love to see it

8. Seto Kaiba

Yes this is a serious answer is it heavily influenced by 6-year-old me who was in love with him and made a self-insert oc to marry him? yes but I also made a 50 slide powerpoint for a ppt night my friends and i did with the theme "defend your problematic fave" and that powerpoint presentation was entitled "Seto Kaiba is Deeper Than You Think." He's so emotionally constipated and stupid I love him so much

9. Rapunzel

Yes this is the disney character but i love her ok it is another example of a feminine and kind character still being an extremely strong individual also i relate to her guilt complex

10. Pearl SU

Ok so I do not care about this show as much as I used to but I still really really love Pearl. There was just so much about her that you didn't see in media unless it was villainized... What I like most about her is the stuff that a lot of people had a problem with. She was very flawed, the way she handled her grief was not pretty, her jealousy was enormous but she still swallowed it to take care of the people she loved, her thought process was so interesting and different, just. So well written. I also relate to her a ton. And finally, big nose we love to see it.

Honorable mentions that are mostly down here because i did not want to repeat the same source of media: Kiryu, Makoto Makimura, Penny (sdv), Entrapta (she ra), Daigo, Ichiban, Leliana (dragon age), Fenris (dragon age), Axel (kh), Wei Wuxian (the untamed), Marina and Pearl (splatoon).

[ukiyoart]

Soooo I wrote a kinda rough draft story based on my stardew character so here it is :D

Starts off with the beginning of Elliot’s story, then there’s the sound of a foghorn and it switches to Elliot, startled out of his focus. He looks out the window, but there is only gray (see what I did there hehe)

Then it’s Anni, sitting on the mountain with Sebastian. She feels happy as she leans against him and watches the twinkling lights of the far of city she used to live in. Sebastian lights a cigarette, which Anni tells him he should quit. He grumbles that she’s probably right, but smiles, puts it out and kisses her. And etc, something like the mountain scene.

Anni is at first only friends with Abigail, Sam and Sebastian who is her boyfriend. She’s also acquainted with Emily, though she’s mostly just friendly.

Elliot is friends with the old fisher living on the docks, and Leah, a fellow artist who likewise came out to the country to focus on her creative works.

Elliot has seen the new resident of Stardew Valley around, but never really spoken to her. But one day they bump into each other at the supermarket, quite literally. Anni apologizes for hitting him and Elliot says he’ll only forgive her if she gets coffee with him.

“I have a boyfriend...” she says deadpan, but he assured her he only needs a break from his writing and someone to share his ideas with. Anni agrees if he’s going to pay the bill.

So he asks her what kind of books she likes and they talk about books for a while.

The next time they run into each other, Elliot finds Anni drinking in the back corner off the bar, and asks if he can sit with her. She agrees. After a few verbal exchanges, he finally asks her what’s wrong. Slightly buzzed, she vents about paying the bills, and Elliot relates that the most he can afford is his shabby cabin on the beach, but it’s charming in its own way and it’s the perfect place for his writing. Anni thinks it seems like a nice place to live, far away from other people. Like her boyfriend, she says, then starts complaining about how he sometimes seems like he could care less about her. Elliot assures her that certainly can’t be true, to which Anni just shrugs and takes another swig of beer. Elliot orders a whiskey, and they both drink and laugh till the bar closes.

The next day Anni appears at Elliot’s door with a basket of Apricots, apologizing for her whining last night, and thanking him for talking with her all night. He smiles and says it’s no big deal, and thanks her for the fruit. He asks her where she got it, she sheepishly replies that she grew them. He smiles and invites her in, she politely refuses saying she’s got plans with her boyfriend

She goes to the fair with Sebastian and Sam and Abigail. They go on the Ferris wheel and several roller coasters. Finally at the end of the night, they all get ice cream and watch the boats light up the river. Everything seems wonderful, but when Anni gives him a little flower, he is unenthusiastic when he takes it, then runs to catch up with Sam and Abigail. Anni rationalizes he just doesn’t like flowers that much, which she already knew, then goes to catch up too. When she gets home she lies on her bed and looks up at the ceiling, her anxious thoughts catching up with her once again. Does he really hate flowers that much? It was only a joke! Or was it her that he was unenthusiastic about?

She asks Abigail about it, who only says that Sebastian is an independent person, and it’s hard to tell what he’s thinking.

Sam says not to worry about it.

Back to Elliot, he is hanging out with Leah at the beach. She’s painting, and he’s writing down ideas for his story. Leah asks him how his story is going, which he enthusiastically says he’s gotten some much needed inspiration. Leah asks where he got it from, and he asks if she knows the new girl from the city. Leah hasn’t really interacted with her either. Elliot tells her about their coffee trip, and mentions that she seemed genuinely interested in his book, and had some great ideas. But mostly, it was her that inspired one of his characters. Leah teases his admiration of her, which Elliot waves off by saying writers tend to romanticize everything. He goes back to writing and periodically staring out at the sea.

Leah, intrigued by Elliot’s description of her, seeks out Anni and introduces herself. They talk as they shop, then She asks what kind of things Anni likes. Anni isn’t sure how to answer, she starts off with staple things like board games, hanging out at the bar with friends, then gets more comfortable and says she enjoys gardening and watching the fog rise from her pond in the early hours of the morning when it’s still dark. Leah says she would love to paint it sometime, and suggests they go apple picking. Right now? Anni is surprised but goes. They talk a lot and start becoming good friends.

Later Anni and Abigail Sam and Sebastian are trying to figure out what to do, Anni low key suggests apple picking. Sebastian shuts her down, saying he doesn’t really enjoy being out in the sun. Abigail agrees, saying she doesn’t want to get a sunburn. Anni is a little disappointed, but doesnt show it. They decide to play pool at the bar, which Anni still thinks is fun so it lifts her mood a bit. She has a good time, and Sebastian buys her a drink and tells her he’s sorry if he seemed kind of rude earlier. Anni tell him it’s fine and thanks him for the drink.

The next day, Anni goes with Leah and Elliot to skip stones across the lake. Anni tells them about how her other friends didn’t seem very interested in apple picking. Leah points out that not all people are interested in the same things. Anni expresses that she shares a lot of interests with Sebastian, but she wishes he wasn’t so emo sometimes. She brings up how he barely sets foot in the sun, at least not without a hoodie over his face. Elliot says that it’s great to share interests with someone, but in the end it’s shared values that makes them a precious friend. So even though Sebastian will not always agree with you, as long as you share a view of what’s important, you’ll be okay. Anni smiles and says that’s good advice. They continue skipping stones, until Anni gets a text from Sebastian saying “come immediately it’s important!” She apologizes and says she has to go. After she leaves, Leah says Anni is so cute! And Elliot agrees that she really is a sweet person.

Anni gets to Sebastian’s house and finds him grinning in the wet grass with a frog in his hands. “This is the emergency???” Anni asks, puzzled. “I never said emergency” Sebastian laughs, then shows her to frog, explaining how he found it by a little puddle. Anni thinks it’s cute that he’s so excited, but tells him not to make her worry. Sebastian laughs and tells her if he’s ever in trouble, he’ll use all Caps. Anni shakes her head, but laughs.

Next day Anni is working at the coffee shop, Leah comes in and says she didn’t know Anni worked here. Anni explains that she didn’t, she just applied for part time the other day to help with the bills. Leah asks her what her main job is. Anni doesn’t want to say at first, but after some prodding she admits that she’s a farmer. Leah thinks it’s awesome and asks why she’s shy about it. Anni tells her how Sebastian and Abigail and Sam aren’t really country people, and it rarely comes up. Leah asks if Sebastian knows, Anni says he does, but he’s never really come to the farm. He probably thinks it’s just a family business I help out with. Leah is concerned, but Anni says that she doesn’t plan to be a farmer forever anyway, she’s taking an online course for computer science. She and Sebastian might even open up their own business someday. Leah still isn’t convinced, but leaves it alone.

Some stuff in here, Anni tells the squad she likes farming and they are supportive, she introduces them to Elliot and Leah, they do some fun stuff together and become friends. Elliot helps Anni realize there are some red flags in her relationship with Sebastian, not that he is bad but they just might not be the most compatible for the long term. Meanwhile, Anni starts to catch feelings for Elliot, and battles with her growing love for him and her attachment to Sebastian. With the help of Abigail and Leah, and even Sam, she gathers the courage to work it out with Sebastian, and they decide that they should break up. Things are tense between them for a little bit, they still want to be friends but Sebastian is hurt that Anni doesn’t love him anymore, and Anni wants to reassure him but isn’t sure how to make him understand. Elliot finds her crying and she tells him about their breakup, and how she doesn’t love Sebastian any less, she just has realized they would only be unhappy if they continued a romantic relationship. Elliot comforts and hugs her, reassuring her that he only needs time to come to terms with it, and with enough patience and understanding hopefully they can patch things up properly. Anni hugs him tightly, then looks up at him before kissing him on the cheek. Elliot is surprised, but thinks she’s just emotional because of her situation.

The next day Anni apologizes, slightly embarrassed. Elliot tells her it’s alright, that she’s going through a lot and he understands. Anni can’t tell if she’s grateful he didn’t think anything of it, that’s one less thing to worry about right now, but she’s also kind of disappointed he doesn’t think of her that way. She moves on and asks Sebastian if they can talk. He agrees, and she lets him know that she never fell out of love with him, she just realized they wouldn’t be very happy in a long term relationship. Sebastian expresses that he thought he just hadn’t done enough for her, and that was why she didn’t want to be with him anymore. He’s relieved that’s not the case. They seem to get along better after that.

After that Anni continues talking to Elliot a lot, but now their conversations are much more relaxed and not about drama, many are about books and places they would love to travel, etc. Elliot finishes his book, and everyone comes to listen to his reading. He thanks everyone for their support, and thanks Anni for agreeing to have coffee with him one day, without her he would never have thought to write what he did. Soon after, Elliot invites Anni to go with him on his rowboat after he fixed it. Anni agrees, and they talk about his book for a while. Elliot starts to thank her again, then starts acting a little flustered and confused. For once I don’t have the right words.. he says... for the way I feel about you. He ends up kissing her on the cheek to convey his affections, asking her if she feels the same way. Anni happily agrees, and they share a kiss.

Soon after they start dating, making it publicly known. Abigail, Leah and Sam are supportive. Sebastian tried hard to be okay with it, but he resents Elliot.

They all go for a picnic by the lake. Sebastian acts defensive and rude around Elliot, and Anni is upset. She goes to talk to him, worried that she’s hurting him and sad that he can’t get along with Elliot. Elliot stops her, and says to let him talk to Sebastian. Anni is reluctant, but Elliot says that she doesn’t need to fix everything herself, and he wants to help. He goes and talks to Sebastian. Sebastian is annoyed at first, but after realizing Elliot truly loves Anni, he admits that he wants Anni to be happy, even if it means she isn’t by his side. Elliot suggests he let Anni know, so that she can be free of worry and released from her romantic ties to him. Sebastian ponders this for a moment, then frustratedly says he doesn’t want to let her go yet and storms off. Abigail walks up next to Elliot and says she’ll talk to Sebastian. She goes off, then returns with him, motioning him over too Anni. He pulls her away privately and tells her that he still loves her, but he can see that she’ll be a lot happier with Elliot. Anni hugs him and thanks him for understanding. Sebastian hesitates, then embraces her back for a moment, before she pulls away and takes his hand, beckoning him back to the rest of the group. Sebastian tells Elliot to treat her better than he could have. Elliot laughs and agrees, then goes over to Anni and hugs her from behind. Sebastian watches wistfully, but smiles and looks towards Abigail, who nods approvingly.

And so on and so forth, a happy ending :)

[benjineedssleep]

stardew valley* headcanons because i'm sick and the brainrot is real <3

i'm trying to get into the fandom but i'm scared so please interact >_< ...also if these have been said before i'M SORRY--

*mostly ass trio with some adjacent stuff because i love them sm =(((

ass trio like to collect old tech and physical media. abby collects old games and consoles, sam collects cds/vinyl, sebastian collects cds and movies (mostly vhs but he'll also fw dvds).

we all know sebastian's a ginger but how about abby cutting and dyeing his hair every month??? *melts*

speaking of dyeing hair, sam has darker hair like his mom but she helps him bleach and tone it. he started doing it to look more like his dad but it kinda just stuck.

jodi always wanted a daughter and for a while resented having two sons. though, the older she gets (and the more the learns about sam specifically) the less she silently resents them. she just asks sam if he wants to do certain things with her (like go get mani-pedis at the beginning of summer) and sam is always like 'FUCK YEAH' (minus the fuck, jodi hates cursing) because he loves his mom, loves self care, and isn't ashamed of either of those things.

sebastian is also a mama's boy. a really big mama's boy. he tells robin anything and everything and she's usually the first person he goes to, abby being the second.

abby/seb wlw/mlm solidarity. i don't make the rules. they are also bonded like cats and should not be separated. live laugh love platonic intimacy and soulmates. i'm talking abby playing with seb's hair, forehead kisses, dancing with each other just cause, etc. etc. <3

sam is so very midwest/5th wave emo coded. not explicitly those genres but i'm definitely talking american football, origami angel, sunny day real estate, etc. he's also into some dad rock because of kent. listening to mid-late 90s/2000s bands while in the car with his dad is a very fond memory of his.

sebastian my artist king!!! he's a bit of a perfectionist but he's really good and sometimes abby and sam ask him why he chose to pursue coding instead. he says it's because he doesn't wanna lose a fun hobby/form of self expression (and he's so real for that).

sebastian is entirely content with sitting in silence with people. he actually prefers it. come sit on his couch while he codes for hours on end and remind him to eat and drink and he'll love you forever. and if he's not coding, watch a movie or play a game that doesn't require insane co-op skills. anything that doesn't require him to talk too much or he'll probably end up spilling his guts by accident. will it make sense? no. but if he finds the words to describe how he's feeling, he's gonna say them.

on that note, sebastian is very bad at hiding his emotions and equally as bad at handling them. he's also the kind of guy that would let you come over just to rant, hand you some tissues if you cry, but wouldn't have much input.

sam, on the other hand, is very good at hiding his emotions and bottles things up for other people's sake. this comes from having to fill the role of his dad while he was away at war and step up as that father figure for vincent. he's very good at supporting you if you're upset but will probably fumble trying to find the proper words.

abby is like the middle ground, everything depending on the situation. though, she tends to be a bit hot headed; passive aggressive. if someone hurt you, she's already up wrapping her hands so she doesn't break them punching someone in the face.

speaking of abby being ready to throw hands, that girl is built, okay? she goes in the mines and swings that sword often enough to have some jacked ass arms and shoulders. she still likes being a pretty girl tho, don't get it twisted. she's just a jacked pretty girl >:3

abby and sam definitely bond quicker than sam and sebastian. they have a lot more things in common on the surface. their music tastes overlap a bit more, they're both the kind to cut up their clothes imperfectly for the vibes, and are equally as wild/bubbly.

abby!!! likes!!! to!!! rollerblade!!! inlines!!!! specifically!!! her and sam stay busting their ass in the town square.

sam's got a sleeper build for real. he's generally a bigger guy, in terms of height and such, but you wouldn't know he's got strength unless you saw him do something. working out is another thing he did casually to be like his dad but also, vincent was very needy when he was a toddler and he still likes to be carried around if jodi'll let sam do it.

jodi is a very soft, "hidden" supporter. she's the kind of mom that would have a pride pin/ribbon on her bag year round and randomly buy sam new music/skating equipment despite complaining about the noise/injuries.

robin is a very loud, "in your face" supporter. she also doesn't sugar coat a damn thing despite trying to look at things in a more optimistic light. she can and will embarrass you in front of your friends.

caroline is a reluctant, "if you must" supporter. she hates most of what abby chooses to do and takes a long time to warm up, but eventually comes around. it's usually the result of jodi and robin explaining to her that things are never that serious (like abby dyeing her hair and cutting her clothes up). sometimes she just needs to be reminded she too was young once.

vincent loves swearing and torments both jodi and penny with all the new ways he tries to curse without actually saying "bad words". see: "what the chicken butt!!!" (he definitely doesn't get it, but he tries to pretend he does.)

robin panic cooks/bakes at any inconvenience or event. you're hurt? sick? it's your birthday? you got a promotion? she's in the kitchen at the crack of dawn tearing the place apart to make something perfect. did i also mention she's a mess and will try to multitask, failing miserably? (there have been multiple times she's done the same step of a recipe twice because she forgot and it almost always ends up leading to massive batches of food she has to give away.)

okay i think that's enough... i can go on for literally ever y'all. i have so much brain rot. lmk if you want more cause i've got a whole 87k word fic to pull from (and also a bunch of other shit that floats around in my brain...)

p.s. i haven't posted the fic anywhere and don't plan on doing so until it's done. but i can share screenies... perhaps... hmnfjfjhgj

[perawuat]

Current opinions on some twisted wonderland characters:

Scarabia:

back then, I initially thought Kalim had a cruel disposition. but here the dynamics seems to me that Jamil is bureaucratically the deputy head of the dormitory, but in practice he controls everything, while Kalim bureaucratically is the leader, but he doesn't do a fucking thing from morning to night!

I bet a kidney that jamil will turn into a dark version instead of KALIM

It makes me laugh too much that Kalim hates eating alone, i mean hahahahahha YOU ARE A VERY DAMNED INNOCENT CHILD

AND I LAUGH AS A STUPID TO THINK THAT KALIM HATES CURRY BUT JAMIL LOVES CURRY HAHAHA

i think jamil is one of the characters that surprised me the most, i mean, do you really breakdance and play basketball ?! and I thought he was a bookworm

if jamil and amelie were a couple, it would definitely be jamil who will cook, otherwise amelie will poison everyone

Jamil = Bad with: Touching bugs (WTF MAN?)

Savanaclaw:

So, I can't understand Leona! He is a big dick, but he respects women, he is a donkey at school, but he knows how to play chess. WHAT ARE YOU! TELL ME WHAT ARE YOU ?!

Leona’s Special skill: Falling asleep in 3 seconds (I can only bow to your magnificence my king)

I imagine Amelie forcing leona to eat vegetables because she is a vegetarian. Guy who beats him to feed him with vegetables. sorry I'm crazy

Since leona is not even good at children, I imagine that whenever they leave his nephew to look after him, he gives it to Amelie. like "take this thing, and make it stop crying!". maybe his nephew becomes fond of Amelie and calls her "aunt"

Leona's mother: who is aunt amelie?

Leona: * sweats nervously *

OK SOMEONE TELL ME HOW A 16-YEAR-OLD BOY HAS THE TONNESS OF ONE OF 30. SOMEONE STOP DOPING JACK!

But in the end he doesn't seem like an evil guy, he's a giant tsundere.

C'mon, you can't call it dangerous, someone who grows cacti and does snoabording LMAO

Ruggie is a small hyena who wants to have a better future, and I must admit that I like her character.

In short, how cute he does part-time jobs, it helps leona, he likes to study animal languages! how can you not love him?

BUT ABOVE ALL WE HAVE DISCOVERED ITS TRUE EDENTITY: sampei is the lmao fisherman

Ignyhide:

Idia plays and cheats at monopoly and I can swear this on my life!

Idia is the type that throws you a +4 and then changes color with the only FUCKING color you don't have in the deck of UNO cards.

why do i say that? because he is in the board games club.

this guy I don't understand if he has problems making facial expressions, or he is an emo with a split personality.

However, I love the fact that he speaks through his tablet.

he loves candy....SOFT UWU

ORTHO MY LOVE, you are cute and sweet, but god you are also disturbing!

what do you mean you love to investigate? AND I AM IN THE BATHROOM MAKING MY NEEDS DO I HAVE TO BE AFRAID THAT YOU ARE SPYING MYSELF?

Is it possible that everyone knows Ortho and no one ever wondered where this robotic child came from? i mean CROWLEY? DO YOU NOT HAVE INFORMATION ABOUT YOUR STUDENTS?

Octavinelle:

Before starting a question permeates my stupid mind: who knows how cool the place will be where these three guys come from! will be under water? will it be like atlantis? do boys turn into mermaids? Hotel? Trivago?

Azul for the love of poseidon! eat healthy food! you can't live by frying food

I love your hobby of collecting coins, what a man of ancient times

I keep saying that the fact that jade and floyd have a centimeter difference is RIDICULOUS

Jade is sebastian and my description of him ends here.

NO WAIT FORGET ONE THING! Jade eats octopus carpaccio and here I spontaneously ask, DO YOU WANT TO EAT AZUL ?!

Floyd and jamil are in the same basketball club and that kills me because you imagine that giant of Floyd against jamil, what will that dwarf do? beat him on the shins?

I love and maybe I'm not so surprised that floyd loves music. I imagine myself playing some jazz music or dancing some slow and sensual dance!

he does parkour? what are you here? ninja?

[somedew-fictions]

Here me out...

I know Sebastian is everyone's fanged-boi, and I get that. He makes the perfect classic vampire: stays in his room all day where no light can reach him, rarely leaves the house, enjoys the cold and rainy weather, has emo hair, etc...

But, what if there is another vampire in town- one that is the opposite personality wise to him?

I'm talking about Sam. Sam would be a great vampire... But here me out. It's really cute if you think about it.

Sam thinks of his immortality in a much more positive perspective, taking it as a chance to have the most fun possible: skateboarding, starting a band, playing video games, etc.

He doesn't care if he is bad at anything, such as pool, because he knows if he has plenty of time to enjoy the human aspects of life. But sometimes he can't help get upset when his friend is just THAT much better.

While skateboarding he can fall a thousand times and not care, feeling a rush of what the assumes the humans feel when they fall.

In the summers he wears a baseball cap that smooths back his spiky hair in the cutest way possible, and wears a pair of sunglasses that when he smiles, his cheek bones reach up and brush the bottom of the frames.

He always is making the farmer laugh, taking an extra liking to mortals. They are so delicate and cute to him, lives so short that he wants to help them make the best of it.

Playing pool with the only other vampire in town, Sebastian, once a week is one of his favorite ways to spend his time, finding it comforting that he has at least one person to lean on when things get tough.

He loves animals more than anything, believing they are the most innocent creatures to ever live. He often hides in the farmer's barns so he can cuddle and pet the animals in there or lie on the floor to conversate with them to himself.

He even likes to visit the farmer in the dead of night, knocking on their window to take them into the secret woods for a night-time stroll.

Sam is also one who loves human food, even trashy joja cola because he doesn't know better, thinking the drink is charming despite how horrible it is.

Sam does put off feeding though. He hates doing it with a passion, putting it off to the point he gets moody and twitchy and has to disappear for a few days to sort himself out, always worrying the farmer sick.

Sam is very gentle and caring, and hates it when he has to think about harming things. He laughs when he falls off his skateboard because he knows he won't get hurt, but seeing Penny trip and scrape her knees makes his chest ache and seeing the farmer come back from the mines all dirty and beat up makes him feel like he could cry. He wishes the mortals were more aware of how fragile they are, but sometimes that is the most endearing thing about them. That stupid fiery spirit they all have.

And of course he has his vampire friend Sebastian to help him all through it. When Sam is particularly upset about something he saw in town such as two villagers arguing or someone falling, Sebastian is there to offer comfort, assuring him humans can take care of themselves. Sebastian isn't very good at comforting him, but his logic always makes sense.

Sebastian is even there for him when Sam needs to feed, normally being the one to do damage control if Sam accidently lashes out because he mistakenly thought he was strong enough to fight his urges. Normally Sebastian will take Sam out to the secret woods to hunt or even up into the mountains, aware that Sam doesn't like being so close to home when he becomes the only part he hates about himself.

If you aren't convinced that Sam is the cutest vampire ever, just imagine this:

Sam's happy, grinning/laughing portrait with little fangs.

Now I KNOW I have you convinced.

[soldierallen]

Married. 14

Appearances; Chase Crawford, Sebastian Stan, Anthony Mackie, Henry Cavill, Chris Evans, Alexandra Daddario, Morena Baccarin, (Elena & Margo but their just characters).

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Warnings; arguments, kissing, past memories, crying, anger issues.

Chapter 13 < Here

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It’s been five long months of not a lot of real contact with Sebastian a few Skypes a few phone calls, he was in a meeting with the people at black rock and they told him they wanted him in Canada permanently he did such a fantastic job.. he sat there in absolute disbelief they wanted him to be CEO of their Canadian company and it was big deal but he couldn’t.. he wouldn’t

He was in his own house for the first time in five months, it was empty.. she wasn’t a around “she wasn’t here it felt cold” he thought, he sat on his couch fully suited with complete silence... I won’t take the offer I’m not going to even tell her. He knew he couldn’t stay away from her he couldn’t stop her from living her dream so that he could chase his own.

Bottles of champagne popped and people cheered from the company they all joined their boss in celebration that the article was finished and with enough evidence y/n put the man behind bars, this wasn’t suppose to be a case where a man was put behind bars however it happened her identity is protected she is in no danger what so ever, but of course she felt a sense of fear.

“You’re amazing” her boss said taking a last drink of her wine

“shut up no I am not, I put a man behind bars I feel so guilty” “he was a murderer y/n?” “I know but he had a family! a daughter I got to know.. and a wife who loved him and I lied and manipulated that family I made those people my friends and I ripped their father figure & husband away from them...chase...” she looked at chase and he wasn’t paying attention to what she was saying “what?” A little drunk he said “never mind, it’s done I can’t wait to go home relax and sleep with my fiancé” she was thrilled “how is he..” chase asked clearly drunk “he’s okay from what he told me last week”

“Oh yeah he’s probably screwing every girl he sees” he laughed slurring his words a bit “that’s funny when I didn’t ask for your opinion” she threw his jacket at him “I called you a cab paid em’ and gave them your address go home Crawford” “Y/n I have to tell you a secret” he stood up getting dizzy he put his hands on her shoulders “I never wanted to work for the magazine, i never wanted this... I wanted to be an actor in Hollywood i was considered for a big part in a movie but I’ll never tell Elena because what if I do get an acting job... I’m gonna have to be away from her and I don’t think I’m able to do that I love her so much but I have a dream I have to give up for her this is her home...” chase said his hands still on her shoulders he rubbed his thumb up against one and walked away waving to her leaving y/n’s semi home, she packed all of her things thinking about Sebastian... did he feel the same way chase feels? I’m holding him back? she hoped not.

“I’m getting on the plane” she said excitedly as she FaceTimed her four best friends “mya’s game is tomorrow I want you to suprise her is that okay” Anthony said “yes of course I can’t wait to be there” she saw Henry “how’s baby cavill?” Henry picked up the baby out of his crib “well william is great he can’t wait to see his beautiful aunt” he kissed his sons head and her heart felt warm, Kids was that something she wanted one day? “I love you baby I’ll see you later” he blew a kiss to the screen and Chris pretended to catch it “I hate you evans” “no you don’t you love me every single day of your life bye” both Chris and Sebastian hung up Anthony and Henry still on the line, “I need to talk to you about something” Anthony said as she walked to her gate “what?” “me and Henry had a conversation and I think you and Sebastian should have your wedding privately..” Anthony said she gave a strange look? “y/n Alex is planning something” Henry said still holding William when Morena came and took the baby “how do you know?” “I work for daddario and he said my daughter has plans to ruin the wedding and I need your help not knowing me and Henry are together” morena said, her heart felt bitter why was alex still hung up on us can’t she live her own life “I have friends in high places to and if she’s looking to ruin my wedding she has another thing coming to her” she said as she approached the plane saying her goodbyes, as she was on the plane there was a baby who kept staring at her “what’s with all the babies” she whispered to herself she smiled...

why was alex still trying to ruin her life she lost her job she lost her boyfriend she lost her best friend and everything just got back to normal & now she’s looking to ruin everything again!

When she walked through the door no one... “Sebastian?” She yelled it was almost 8pm it was an early landing she saw Margo talking on the phone in the dining room “Margo?” Margo smiled and hugged her “it’s so nice to see you mrs stan having both of you back Is pretty wonderful!” Mrs stan she liked the ring it had to it she smiled at the young girl Margo was a 20 year old who was cleaning part time she’s been working for Sebastian for a year and half she didn’t know her too well “where’s Sebastian?” “Oh he had a few errands to run or something” she smiled she nodded her head opening the door to put her things in her room.

there he was... “oh my god what are you doing in here”

she screamed hugging him so tightly he reciprocated squeezing the life out of her body “i wanted to suprise you however you came too early” she was still sitting in his arms, his legs spread apart his head on her stomach “I didn’t want no big gesture I wanted you all of you” she lifted his head kissing him he pulled away kissing her neck his hands finding their way up her legs a small moan released from her mouth which brought him back to reality with a smirk

“I haven’t been touched in 5 months” she said with a laugh and he did too he stood up kissing her hand “well since your so “hungry” I thought maybe you wanted dinner” he led her out of her room he looked back to see Margo gone, and the backyard set up like he asked “Sebastian” she was blown away two chairs and a round table fixed to perfection candles in the pool and dim twinkle lights “how long did this take” she asked out of pure curiosity which made him laugh “I asked Margo to set up some of it before I got home, and then I did the rest and the cooking may I add it’s probably cold now but we’ll make it work” he said with a smile on his face kissing the back of her hand while he held it “I love you” he said she kissed his cheek “I love you more, remember that I started it FIRST” she laughed letting go of him sitting at the table he sat as well they ate and talked about all their lost time

“so what’d the executives at black rock say?” he was gonna lie to her and he felt terrible however he couldn’t go he wouldn’t.. “they loved my work and thought I really builded the company for the branch” he smiled

“and?” she drank the wine in her glass “and they don’t want me to run the branch” he lied for her.. she frowned “I’m sorry baby” she reached over and grabbed his hand kissing it “hey look at the bright side we don’t have to leave the house or move” she said, he half smiled at her “yeah, you know how much I love you and this house” she nodded with love in her eyes she felt so loved by him

“I have a question, when did you know you loved me?” He asked as they sat at the table it getting darker and darker as they talked, “I think it was the day at the football game, I knew you meant more to me than just some crush” she said “care to explain?” he said and she laughed beginning to tell the story

••

herny’s on the field he just won the last game of the season, there was confetti, water being spilled on everyone it was a victory for the seventeen year olds that just started to figure out life a bit, she sat and watched everyone on the field hug and kiss Henry and congratulate him on his win, when an arm wrapped round her shoulder their heads laid on each other “you know some day y/l/n... we’re gonna start our lives go to college and all of these people won’t be around for that they are temporary but you I’m always gonna have you in my life sure we may all stop being friends at one point but I know you mean too much to me, to ever let you go” Sebastian looked at her and she kissed his cheek “you never cease to amaze me with your very tragic and emo words” he laughed and they walked up to the rest of their friends, everyone laughing, cheering, singing even in that moment she knew she loved him for real. This is it. He’s my forever

••

“I think after that I never stopped thinking about you like ever, I know it was stupid and childish to think I was in love with you in highschool but-“ he cut her off kissing her lips “you never cease to amaze me” he copied her words their lips touching slightly he stood up starting to clean the table and she helped him “what about you stan?” She asked “the night we sat on the hood of my car” he said, she knew that was what he was gonna say. “When we all moved out on our owns and got jobs taking about the move” she said he nodded his voice coming into her head remembering back to his wedding

"And I knew she wasn't you, nobody was you, that night we sat on the hood of my car, we talked about how lifes been treating us since the move, and I couldn't get you out of my head when i went home I should've seen it all before but it was my fault"

She looked at him waiting for him to tell the story, he was washing the dishes while she dried them

••

It’s a year later after four years of college, we’re in our 20’s and we’re finally out on our own. y/n’s settled into her own apartment that the boys moved her into of course Chris and Sebastian are living together, Anthony’s engaged and Henry’s pursing a life in football.

honking his horn sitting outside of his car waiting for her to hear it and look out the window, she does, she’s innocently opening her window “Sebastian Stan it’s four am what are you doing here” she yells “get dressed we’re gonna go somewhere” he yells back and the neighbor next door opens his window and yells out “shut up” and both at the same time they yell back “YOU SHUT UP” he gets angry and closes his window and the both of them burst out in laugther.

Finally after 20 minutes her door opens and she walks outside Sebastian opens her side of the car closes her door for her, and goes around to open his door and she reaches over and opens his door for him, it was a small gesture but Seb always remembered it.

they were on that hill he showed her first, They laid on the hood of his car y/n explained how working for Downey was. things were happening as an assistant to the assistant, Sebastian was just starting off working as a mail boy in the office at black rock. They talked for hours and y/n said something “you know He loves you seb, he’s your biggest fan you gotta let him know you trust him he got you that job” she warmed up to him telling him what needed to be done he always remembered that.

“What if he’s just waiting for my downfall to rub it in my face?” She nodded her head no “no father would ever do anything like that for a child they don’t love, he isn’t your biological father but he is the closest and best father you’re ever gonna get” she smiled at him and he smiled back she laid her head into his arm they cuddled up into each other and sat there talking till the sun rose to its highest, it was first night he felt happy since high school.

••

“I can’t believe you remembered I said that? I don’t even remember me saying it” he laughed at her words, “I lost the ring” he admitted to her.. “grandpa’s ring?” She said he nodded “I know your mad but-“ she pulled her necklace out of her dress “you mean the ring you’re gonna wear on your wedding day” she smiled he kissed her “I thought I lost it” “Sebastian it’s been gone since 5 months!!”

“the story reminded me of family and this ring resembles my new family...you...” she turned the water off kissing him he dried his hands with a towel while kissing her she laughed in between kisses from him actually drying his hands in the middle of their kiss, “you’re gonna kill me one day you know that” she said in between kisses “I know my love” his hands finally touching her sides “we have a soccer game tomorrow” she laughed thinking about mya’s game

“I wish we can ditch it and just go at it all day” he kissed her neck sucking slowly not enough to leave marks “I would love that but I can’t let her down” they went into sebastian’s room laying in the bed once she hit the bed she got really tired, it was the next day bright and early she felt the wine from the night before kicking her butt somewhat they took a shower together to “save water” she rolled her eyes at Sebastian when he said that he lovingly spelled words on her back in soap she loved being back with him it was dream..

she wore a baseball cap with sunglasses trying to hide her identity from mya Anthony’s daughter she saw Anthony and smiled “where’s my girl” she said holding sebastian’s hand Anthony pointed her out she let go of Sebastian to see her on the field kicking the ball around before the game starts, “So I heard this is a big game today?” She walked closer to the field “and one of my favorite nieces were playing today” she yelled out mya’s eyes lit up “Y/N” she screamed her name running towards her they hugged tightly, all of the friends collectively getting teary eyed they may seem tough as nails but the boys were soft like teddy bears

“you want kids?” Anthony said quietly just for the two of them to hear.. “if she wants them, I’ll gladly have her children if she doesn’t it’s still fine with me” he said to anthony “but I’m asking you do you want kids?” anthony said “maybe, you and henry are good fathers.. I hope I am as good as a father as..” he was gonna say Tripp but he changed his mind “Tripp?” Anthony said before whistling for his daughter who was about to start playing “yeah..” it was a soft subject with him. Y/n saw Henry with William and she kissed Henry’s cheek picking up the grabby hands baby, Sebastian was cheesing watching her with William, he did want kids but if she didn’t he wasn’t gonna make her..

Half way through the game all of mya’s “uncles” & “aunts” were doing the absolute most being extremely embarrassing family cheering her on, they used to do it for Henry when they was in high school why wouldn’t they do it for Anthony’s kids, mya’s team won it was a big celebration Sebastian was carrying Anthony’s other daughter nicole whilst y/n was holding William

“You know the two of you look like good as parents!” they heard a distant voice all of the friend group but someone else....“how are my little play toys” Alexandra appears from left field as all the families are mostly gone, sebastian’s jaw clenches “hey nick” he puts the little girl down “go with dad and I’ll be there in a minute” the little girl catches up to her father and y/n is in shock looking at Alex as if she seen a ghost she see’s Henry and hands the baby off to him both adults have no clue what’s about to happen.

“come on seb let’s go” She persists Alex mocks her facial expression and puts her focus towards Sebastian

“So it has come clear to me that the lovely couple is getting married! Wow” she was a bitch y/n wasn’t in the mood for any of this bullshit both of them had nothing to say to her they sat in silence for a second as the two of them started to walk away “you stole my life from me, and I will never get over it, that night you should’ve took the money and kept your mouth shut but here we are!” She laughed with no humor in her voice she yelled loudly as they walked away when Sebastian turned around

“robbie’s gone- “ she was about to continue when Sebastian blurred out “what a shocker!” giving her an annoyed look “maybe you should worry about chase crawford and your fiancé I heard they got fancy in Brazil together“ alex said y/n rolled her eyes in annoyance walking away from the situation, when in reality she doesn’t even look at other men in another light the way she looks at seb, he’s like a light in a dark room for her... her eyes only catch him

“you’ve been lying to me since 6 years why would you start telling the truth now? You’re petty and jealous get over it! Start your life stop coming after ours ” he grabbed y/n’s hand and they walked away “Fine if you don’t believe me!! I have evidence!” She knew how to get into his head she was with him for 6 years. she put ideas into Sebastian’s mind that maybe what if she did do something? She was gone for five months? thoughts ran through his head & she knew what those words were going to do to him. They got home in the afternoon.

Sebastian threw his keys on the table staring into an oblivion putting his leather jacket on a hook and pulling his sunglasses off, “you look so hot I think blue is your color definitely” she said as he helped her take off her jacket he lightly smiled with a kiss to her lips “I love the way you look in grey so..gorgeous” his one hand on her waist.. he bit his lip making her laugh when all of a sudden she saw the light in his eyes go out he was thinking again

“I’m not fucking my boss” she said in the smallest voice possible not to alarm him in any way, he looked up at her “your thoughts are very loud” He shook his head “what kind of proof does she have?” he hated himself for even saying that out loud and with that the only sound in the house were her shoes her steps to her room not knowing how he couldn’t believe her.

“Baby I’m sorry I love you! I know you didn’t do anything I believe you” it’s been two hours, Sebastian is sitting outside the door to her room, “I don’t know how to feel Sebastian, I’m conflicted as to why you’d think i am cheating on you” she shouted through the door the first words she’s said in two hours, “letting my guard down from what happened before...i- it fell back down please just open the door” as he said that she opened her door “I love you okay I would never intentionally hurt you” he said “I love you however I’m not talking to you right now” she walked out the room, into the kitchen, she heard a nofication noise “she texted me” Sebastian said with a swallow.. her eyes looking at his phone and then back to him “ open the picture” she said “y/n” he said looking at her “you want something to be wrong so try and find it ” She opened the fridge door with a tear running down her face she quickly wiped it so he didn’t see, “show me the proof” she said her face in the fridge grabbing anything she pulled out a water closing the door “it’s a picture of chase he’s holding onto your arms in a house there’s glass windows you’re wearing the white dress you came home in” he said, she nodded her head “do you see a photo of us kissing? Hugging? Making love?” she said slamming the bottle of water on the table, he says nothing staring at her blankly “he’s telling me about Elena what she means to him, and how he wanted a different career however he never took Elena from her family sure it wasn’t a great job but chase was considered for a big roll in LA...he didn’t take it because he loves Elena, is that what you wanted to hear! He was drunk & sad he held onto me for support because he was drunk i paid for a cab he went home” He had felt like the lowest person on the earth for thinking the love of his life would cheat on him that quick “I’m so-“ he was cut off “sorry” she said “you were so quick to judge me”

she took off out the door calling chase and Elena to tell them what’s going on, it started to drizzle, she felt heart broken that he would even think for a second she would cheat.

“alright so you’re telling me.. psycho alex is trying to LIE that you and chase were together?” elena said on the other side of the three way call

“Basically, and I don’t know what to do” she said “we sue?” Chase said nonchalantly like that’s the easiest route to go, “oh and restraing orders! The press will eat that up!” chase said making elena giggle

“guys what are you doing” she was shocked how normal both of them are taking this “listen My lawyer WILL get in contact with daddario and everything will be okay, don’t stress about it..”

“how’s everything at home” chase asked, “not to great..” she replied sitting on someone else’s stairs

“you’re one of my best friends I believe you I hope that’s worth somethin” elena said with a soft smile knowing she can’t see her, y/n felt her warmth

“I have some phone calls to make, I’ll talk to you later” chase said “bye” both of them said as chase hung up “don’t worry chase will get this done” she told y/n for assurance

It’s been a day. Everything has been defused but not in their home.

“hey” she heard his voice from behind her “what are you watching” “inception” she said with no emotion, he peered around the couch seeing her fully displayed body in loose fitting clothes, she was beautiful “I thought you hated the ending to this movie?” He sat next to her a few inches apart “I hate the ending because he got stuck and never got to see his family again” she again said he glanced at her “so you hate it cause he wasn’t actually happy at the end” Sebastian said rubbing his hands together “yeah it was all fake..”

“the guys are gonna come over in a little while, alone..although I wanted to know how that sat with you” Sebastian hated her short answers he wanted her to talk to him “it’s okay I have some work to do that the office anyways” she stood up walking into the kitchen “don’t play stupid games with me” Sebastian said now getting angry I talked about his temper long ago it never got better it just got controlled..

“I’m not interested in fighting I’m sad and I’m disappointed that you’d believe a women that cheated on you till the day of your wedding than a women who’s had your back since day one that danced with you on your rehearsal day because she wasn’t there, a women that sat in silence in a church pew waiting for you say the truth and you didn’t, if Robbie never walked through those doors you would’ve been married to her.” she finally said the words she been wanting to say for a while,

“well maybe I should’ve just married her” he said angerily, her eyes widen she was not waiting for that response, her tears welled up in her eyes and an instant regret appearing on sebastian’s face she ran out the door crying hysterically she hit into someone “I’m sorry I’m sorry” she repeated trying to recollect herself “hey hey it’s me what’s going on??” the voice felt so warming it was Henry he was the first to arrive, she hugged him so tightly crying into his arms his arms wrapped around her body securely his one hand reaching up to cradle her head “what happened” “I don’t know maybe you should go ask seb he always knows the right things to say” she unlatched herself from Henry running to catch a cab “wherever you need to go I’ll take you please don’t walk away” Henry yelled out “I need to be alone” she caught the cab and that was last Henry saw, he was fumming. walking into their house “what the hell did you do stan?” Henry said, Sebastian was in silence on his couch

“I said something to hurt her and I’m gonna regret that for the rest of my life” he stared blankly.. into the fireplace as the fire crackled and Henry stood there not knowing what to say.

[lilyjxmes]

i get by with a little help from my friends || jamestan

when:during filming for Pam and Tommy 

description: Lily has a panic attack after reading some negtive comments about the casting choice for her as Pamela. Sebastain is there to help her.

tags: anxiety tw, panic attack tw. 

@sebasstan

lily 

Lily had just changed out of her final costume, it was all starting to feel real. This was so crazy. She had never done a role like this before but she always wanted push herself, if it didn’t slightly scare her, then she figured it wasn’t worth doing. Lily went back to the green room and made herself a coffee, she was waiting to see if they needed her for anything else. Lily sat on the sofa, her legs folded underneath her. At first she was just scrolling through Instagram but then she did something that she regretted. She searched her name on Twitter. Lily never did anything like that, and she fully regretted it in an instant. There were so many tweets talking about how there were so many ‘better’ options than her to play the part. Looking through the list of names, Lily started to doubt. Would all these people be better than her? Would she be able to pull this off. She put her phone down and wiped the corner of her eyes, trying to calm her breathing down but her thoughts were already running away with her.

seb 

Sebastian was in wardrobe undressing from the last scene, unsure if he needed to get ready for the next one. This role was thrilling for the older Romanian because he had openly expressed at comic con years before how playing a part in a motley crew movie would be his absolute dream role. And here he was, about to play fucking Tommy Lee - his emo phase finally paying off. He had prepped immensely for the role, dropping a ton of weight but still keeping fit to stay true to the part all while wrapping his last movie in Vancouver and doing promo for the falcon and winter soldier. His life felt like it was on overdrive but he wasn’t mad about it in the slightest. The costume designer gave him to the okay to end the day and the older male couldn’t have been happier to wrap after the long day. He thanked the costume designer before saying goodbye and making his way out. Where did Lily go? he thought to himself, wanting to at least see his fellow costar before he left and to also let her know the cast and crew could head home. Sebastian asked around to a few people before being directed to the green room, a smile instantly pulling from his face as he saw his costar sitting on the sofa. “Lils! Hey! Everyone is...” his enthusiastic voice trailed off into in a mere whisper as he saw how upset the younger blonde look. Had she been crying? He questioned himself, closing the door behind him to allow them some privacy. “Is everything okay?” He asked cautiously, not wanting to step on any toes. They had gotten to know each other before all this started, but this was their first personal interaction and he just wanted to make sure he followed her lead and didn’t do anything to disrespect or make her feel uncomfortable.

lily 

Lily knew it was a bad idea, but when she started, she couldn't stop. It seemed that everyone was against her these days. It was one of the reasons she was so excited to move to LA and get started on a new project but it just brought her back into how she felt before she left. People were calling for the likes of Megan Fox or even Sebs wife, Margot to play the part over her. Maybe they were right. Would Margot be mad at her? Lily had got so close to both Seb and Margot but she would hate it if they thought she should be there instead. Lily was so proud of herself when she got the role, she knew it was different from what she usually did but that is what excited her. Lilts head snapped up when she heard Seb come through the door. "Yeah, it's fine." She said, going to put the cup in the sink. She pushed her lips together. "Am I- Is this-" Lily sighed, sitting back down and putting her hands over her face. She let out a breath and looked up at her friend. "People online have very strong opinions on me playing Pam." She said, biting her inside cheek. "And it's hard not to believe them." Lily admitted.25 March 2021

seb 

As Lily began to speak, Sebastian felt his heart sink. He hated that this was happening right now. The male honestly had not  idea  about these strong opinions people were voicing because he took an active stance against using social media - only using his platform to speak out on topics he believed in instead of personal use. With his brows furrowed, Sebastian walked up and sat down next to Lily, turning his body so he could better look at his younger co-star. "Lils, I don't know what any of these people are saying, but you can't pay attention to it." He said with concern laced through his words as he gently reached over and took the phone out of her hand. He swiped out of the screen she was on before shutting off her phone. The last thing she needed was to have this talk and then reopen her phone to it and experience the feelings all over again. "I get it though, now that you've seen it it's kind of drowning out your thoughts. That's how I get sometimes, at least. You know you're a badass and can take on this role, right?" He questioned, needing to know where her beliefs on this were before he moved forward.

lily 

Lily knew as soon as she put her name into the twitter search it was going to end like that. There had been a lot of things said about her in the past but she was someone with thick skin, she could normally let it bounce straight off her. She had been living in LA for about a month now and she loved it, it felt like this was where she was meant to be. But all of a sudden these doubts started creeping in. "I know, I know." She said, pushing her lips together and angling her face away from her co star, who had now become one of her good friends, and wiping a tear away. She was thankful he took the phone off her. A small smile appeared on her face at his words. "I mean, it's not exactly Cinderella." Lily laughed slightly. "It's just so different from what I've done in the past." She said, which is what most of the things online were saying. Lily could feel herself starting to panic and again and tried her best to control her breathing. She finally looked up at Sebastian, feeling a comfort in having him there. "You think I can?"14 April 2021

seb 

Sebastian could see how upset Lily was about this and it honestly broke his heart. He hated that these online trolls were getting the best of her because she didn't deserve that, no one did. "I know you can, Lily." He confirmed, his bright blue eyes locking with hers. "I know this is all different for you, but you got this. It's a new challenge for you and I think you're about to show everyone that you're meant to be playing Pam." He said with a smile as he placed her phone behind him, away from her view. "I know how rough self doubt can be. I also know how hard it is to play a darker role, and just know I'm going to be here for you every step of the way, okay? We're a team with this and whatever you feel like you need to practice, we can do that." He offered her a smile, hoping his words were coming across as reassuring. Lily had became one of his best buds and he didn't like seeing any of his friends so upset like this.19 April 2021

lily 

Lily didn't know if it was the pressure of the role or the fact she had been so far away from home for so long but it was like the pressure of everything got to her. She loved working on the project and everyone had been so lovely but she still felt so out of place sometimes. Lily looked at Seb and pushed her lips together, wiping her eyes with her sleeve. "Thank you." She smiled at him. "You've been so good to me over the past few months. I am so lucky that I got to go on this journey with you." Lily said. At every stage of the process from casting to pictures to trailers, there had been support there but she always saw the odd few people getting on at her. "I'm sorry." Lily said, shaking her head. "You did not sign up to be my therapist in all this." She said with a laugh.

[enragedbees]

Alone In The Universe

Pairing: Remile

Summary: Emile has no idea how to take care of a baby.

Warnings: Major character death, car crash, hospital mention, DUI mention (If I missed anything, please let me know!)

Words: 1384

A huge thanks to the awesome @thenewlarislynn for being my beta reader!!

General Taglist: @xionbean @fall-sunflowers @emo-disaster @darkstrange-son

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        Emile was exhausted.

        He trudged through his apartment building, up the staircase and down the hallway, reaching his little apartment at the end. He pulled out his keyring and tried several times to get the correct key into the locked doorknob.

        He pulled the door open and breathed in the smell of home: The homemade potpourri, long cold, still sitting in a saucepan on the stove. A warm vanilla sugar air freshener plugged into the wall. Baby powder, stomped into the carpet and dusting the tables.

        It was the smell of a tiny family completely in love, and it remained untouched by the wrecking ball that had shattered Emile’s world into a billion hopeless pieces.

        Emile’s keys plunked into the dish by the door. The babysitter came out from the other side of the room to announce that the baby was sleeping. Emile thanked her and pulled out his wallet.

        “No. Please,” she insisted. “No charge. It’s the least I can do.”

        Emile didn’t have the energy to argue, but she was out the door before he would have had the chance.

        Emile sighed and loosened his tie, hung up his jacket, looked around the tranquil apartment in his button down. He wanted to start crying again, to get in bed and sob until he couldn’t feel his emotions anymore and never move again. But he had nothing left to cry. He was fragile, empty, waiting for the moment when something would knock him down and he’d shatter. The hole in his chest would expand and swallow him any minute.

        He sat on the couch and pulled his legs up, resting his head against the arm of the loveseat. Every part of his body was heavier. Emile had never realized how much energy it cost to grieve..

        Had it only been a few days? A week, tops. Everything blurred together.

        Everything before had been crystal clear.

        Emile could recall every single detail of everything around him when Remy kissed him goodbye for the day, if someone asked him to.

        Every sound in the air, every object in his line of sight when he got the phone call from the scene.

        The precise pattern of the cars, people, and buildings on the road while tearing to the emergency room.

        The faces of everyone in the ICU waiting area, where he spent exactly 23 seconds before the doctor came in to find him.

        And immediately after, Emile remembered nothing.

        He might have spent that night at a friend's. He vaguely recalled the police at his door, saying something about a drunk driver, that they had arrested him. It didn’t matter. The damage was done.

        The funeral that afternoon was the first time since that his vision was unclouded and his memory sharp.

        And Emile was exhausted.

        The baby started to fuss in the next room over, and Emile opened his eyes, not realizing when he closed them. He pushed himself up and walked into the bedroom, stopping above the crib.

        Remy had wanted kids so badly. He wanted to raise a child better than his parents raised him, to undo the negativity his parents put into the world with him. He wanted to teach them about everything he knew was important, make sure they learn things they shouldn’t have to learn about on their own. He wanted to love and raise them and watch them change the world.

        It terrified Emile. Of course, he wanted that too, but there were so many things to worry about. Some small thing he did when they were babies could damage them forever. He could do something wrong and literally ruin their lives. He didn’t know anything about raising children and he didn’t want to screw it up.

        But Emile knew that with Remy, he could do it. He could push down his fear and do everything he had to do to raise them properly. They would figure it out together, and Remy would keep him grounded. And as long as they loved and supported their kids unconditionally, he couldn’t mess them up too badly, could he?

        But now, Emile didn’t know what to do.

        He looked down at the baby, barely two and a half months old. After a few months of deliberation, they settled on Sebastian. A compromise; it was relatively uncommon and interesting, but he had the honor of sharing a name with a beloved cartoon character.

        Sebastian squealed and kicked, threatening to completely melt down. Emile reached into the crib, picked him up, resting him against his shoulder, and walked to the kitchen to get a bottle of formula. Sebastian stilled before they reached the fridge.

        Emile hummed. “You just wanted attention, didn’t you?” He cradled Sebastian in the crook of his arm and headed back to the living room. They settled on the couch, and Sebastian leaned into Emile and began to drift off.

        Emile took a big breath as another pang hit his chest. He squeezed his eyes shut, then opened them again and gazed down at the sleeping baby in his arms.

        “I guess it’ll just be you and me for a while, huh.”

        Emile remembered the first time he held Sebastian, just like this. He was just a swollen, red, wrinkled bundle of possibility then. He was even tinier than he was now. Emile could barely believe how much he’d grown and developed in only two and a half months.

        All of Emile’s fear dissipated the first time he held Sebastian. Holding him, Emile knew it was right. However afraid he felt was irrelevant.

        The anxiety returned a few days later. Milder, but constant. Remy had helped to alleviate it.

        Emile ached again and he blinked a few times. He sighed.

        “I should probably tell you that I don’t know what I’m doing,” Emile admitted, fighting the lump in his throat and the pressure behind his eyes. “I mean, theoretically, I should be able to figure out what you need from me. But I’m sorry in advance if I panic or do something wrong.”

        Remy had been so happy. Emile had been able to control his tears up until the moment Remy first held the baby and started crying. Sebastian had immediately cuddled up to Remy and fallen asleep. It was like he knew that he was with his family for the first time.

        Sebastian stretched and yawned, then settled back against Emile, cheek squishing against his arm. An intense stab shot through Emile’s chest and his eyes burned. His bottom lip quivered.

        “But I promise I’ll be the best dad I can,” he said, hot tears leaking out of his eyes and down his chin. “I promise I’ll love you, no matter who you are or who you become. I’ll always pick you up from school. I promise I’ll pack your lunches every day and I’ll help you with your homework. I promise that I’ll always be here for you.”

        Emile lifted an arm and wiped away the tears now streaming uncontrollably from his eyes. “And I swear, I will never, ever, let any harm come to you,” he sobbed. “As long as you need me, you’ll always have me.”

        Sebastian’s eyes opened. He lifted a tiny hand up, reaching for Emile’s face, and babbled. Emile let out a laugh, dragging his soaked sleeve across his eyes. He lifted Sebastian upright and leaned his forehead against the baby’s, and Sebastian giggled.

        “It’s you and me, okay?” Emile sniffed. Sebastian grabbed the frame of Emile’s glasses and tried to pull them off. Emile laughed again, laying Sebastian back to cradle him again, and handed him a toy off the coffee table in front of him.

        Emile looked up, closing his eyes and allowing his tears to fall freely. In his arms, Sebastian gnawed on the colorful plastic of the toy. Emile took a deep breath and looked back down at the baby, smiled, and held him a little tighter.

        Sitting there, his son in his arms, he allowed his heart to break open and shatter. Emile now had a promise to keep to someone who needed him to start working on putting the pieces back together.

        And in the apartment of cold homemade potpourri and warm vanilla sugar and baby powder and love, the tiny family continued to live.